Day 1 | The Beginning
Day 1 | The Beginning
Numb. Lost in translation. Nervous. Butterflies.
That's how I'm feeling going into the trail. I honestly have no idea what I am doing. I stop and think to myself that I can do this. Piece of cake. But, in the back of my head, I'm questioning weather the mountains are actually calling me to go, or telling me to stay the %@*$ home. I'm pretty sure that this idea swirling around in my head about completing the trail, is a false reality and mistakenly misjudged. But, I can't afford to think that. Because, even though nerves are at an all time high, I'm ready for it. It's time for me to go.
People tell me that they believe in me. That they are proud and quite astonished at what I'm doing. But, finally this whole thing hit me yesterday. I'm leaving, completely vulnerable and completely scared. This fear of letting everybody down lingers in the back of my mind, mocking me. Lost in all the emotions. But, I know once I get on the trail and in the groove of things, I'll start finding my way.
Coming from an all time high, I'm a little nervous to leave. I've made great friends and connections. It's very hard to say good-bye. But, that's how it goes and I know that I need to go.
IN MY PACK
My pack weight right now is about 55 pounds. I know how ridiculous that is. I'm not looking forward to hiking 2,700 miles with a pack that heavy. I keep telling myself, do it for the shot.
All my gear, is sponsored by Bob Wards and The North Face. As of so far, I love all of my gear. My single Mica F1 tent is super great and light weight. My sleeping bag is a 0 degree (I know that's ridiculous, but I sleep cold) down bag by The North Face. My backpack is a 70 liter and it fits great. We will see how all this turns out though......with how heavy everything is. I know I might have to throw some things out.
As for my photo gear, I'm carrying my Sony a6300 with the 30mm 1.4 and a 19mm 2.8 lens kit. I'm stoked because my camera body is only 12 ounces! My charging system is definitely the heaviest thing I have in my pack. I have all these cords and plugins for my solar panel, and I'm really nervous of how I'm going to keep it together.
... As of now, I'm driving to the nearest trail point, hiking up to the border, and then back tracking. My father is going to be with me for the first 4 days, which is going to be great father/daughter bonding time... more like he will drag my butt up the mountain and ask me why I'm so slow in the beginning. Sounds aggressive, but trust me, my dad is the strongest person I know.
But, I hope that everybody is keeping it real this summer by adventuring and trying new things. As for now PEACE MISSOULA.